Final Blog of 2025

If I had to give 2025 a rating, I’d give it a 6/10.  Let’s reflect…

I’m using my journals, memory & photo album to reflect on the year as it comes to a close. We are exactly three days away from 2026 as I write this. I entered this year with high hopes and medium dreams. I say medium dreams because I’d spent the previous 5 years in survival mode.

The ending of 2025 feels transformative. It feels grand. I can say with complete certainty that I have 100% outgrown this version of myself. I know, many say that you can start anew anytime, but there is something significant to me about the end of a year and the beginning of a new one. It screams fresh start. Red carpet welcome. Clean whiteboard, no stains of residual magic marker.

For the last few years God has commanded me to be quiet, and the command was very strong in 2025. Quiet about what you ask? Everything. The quieter I became, the more I understood his purpose. In the silence his voice became more clear. I’ve spent more time in my Bible. I’ve been intentional about my prayer life. I’ve made Jesus the center of every single decision I’ve made. I can admit, I’ve tried to fix a few things on my own when I felt he was taking a little too long, but the end result always showed me that it’s his time and not my own.

I’m still in therapy and will remain until I feel it’s no longer necessary. I started with a new therapist last month, and so far so good. Therapy is definitely like new age dating. You keep seeing different people until you find “the one”. One valuable lesson I’ve learned, be honest with yourself and your therapist. You can’t fix/heal what you refuse to tell the truth about.

I started making sourdough! I made my own sourdough starter from scratch, twice! Just call me Bill Nye the science guy lol. I made loaves, cakes, muffins, scones, bagels, waffles, you name it. It’s become quite the obsession. I feel so proud every single time I pull a loaf from the oven. Learning to make sourdough taught me a valuable lesson about patience. Until a sourdough starter is ready, nothing you bake with it will turn out right. The starter has to mature and there’s not much you can do to speed up the process. It takes time and attention, daily. Also, there’s no one right way. You have to adjust to the temp in your house, elevation etc…The lesson, great things take time, consistency and hard work. Here’s a few pics of things I made this year.

Looking back, I made some very happy memories while grieving some very real losses. I continued slowly but intentionally to make myself a priority, saying no to things I didn’t want even when it hurt feelings. I learned I don’t need to be agreeable to save face. Speaking up doesn’t ruin genuine connections. Some endings don’t need closure. I won’t be liked by everyone, and that’s okay. “I don’t want to” is reason enough. I deserve the good that comes to me. Enjoying my blessings isn’t an invitation for loss. Happiness and abundance are not rewards, I was born worthy of them. And if my mind can rehearse every worst case scenario, it can learn to imagine the best ones too.

I learned to really play spades!!!!! This required its own paragraph because you can’t tell me ish!!!! Now, am I an expert yet? No, but can I now sit at the table? Yes. I feel extra black!

Let’s continue. I took lots of pictures and I mean lots lol. I captured memories, both good and not so good. One thing I love about photos, you can look back at a photo and remember exactly what you were experiencing at that very moment. I started a new series on TikTok and started posting food content. Who would’ve thought, eating and posting about food would bring me so much joy!

As I said earlier, the end of 2025 feels transformative. I’ve found MY stride without feeling pressure to compete or keep up. My pace is my pace. I’m going into 2026 with a plan and not just a vision for the very first time and all I can say is, God, show me how good it can get!

2025 Fashion Recap

Until next time 🦋